Here it is a few minutes before midnight & the house is now peaceful. Just a little while ago, I woke up from watching preseason Minnesota Vikings football to a screaming Munchkin tearing down the hallway into our bedroom wanting to be comforted & held after waking up from a nightmare. It all comes clear in moments like that what my role is as a mother - to protect & nurture that child so that he will grow into a confident & strong young adult.
"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities."
- J.K. Rowling
It's Week 7 of my Stream of Consciousness Sunday posts and this is one of those self-revealing posts I'm never sure I really want to write. But here it goes. I've been thinking more about positive energy, flow & focus. So often we stay stuck in our routines when what we really want is to actively move toward some bigger goals for our careers & life in general.
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."
- George Bernard Shaw
Time is flying by and before I know it another month is coming to an end & I've caught myself simply existing - treading water in a way, when what I really feel the need to do is swim forward.
"It always seems impossible until it's done." - Nelson Mandela
This recession has left many of us in a mode of survival, altering our once very confident & secure identities. For me, after the layoff, the first hurdle was finding "a" job. The next hurdle is the transition to finding "the perfect job for me". I have been craving change, exponential personal & career growth. I'm taking steps, slowly checking a few bullets off of my list, but still don't yet see how the broken pieces will all fit together to create the big picture & make me whole again.
Just because you commit to something, it doesn't mean all the answers will suddenly be revealed. It often times takes more research, digging deeper to narrow your options. It's time for me to stop wishing & to find the strength & time to do more doing. Being a nurturing, protective Momma is not the end all be all for me. I need & want to be a whole individual person again & finding that way forward rests squarely on my shoulders.
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
§ Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
§ Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
§ Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
§ Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.
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